I'm in such a weird mental state. I need to curl up, get rid of internet, get rid of my tv, get rid of my phone, just curl up with my books, my GRE words, by myself. Well, I'll keep my animals around so it doesn't seem too too weird. I need to just dive into my school. Which I am not sure how much more I can dive in since I already have a 4.0
I need to numb my heart. I have yet to cry. I guess I cried enough last summer to carry me through the rest of this heartache.
I don't know which way is up, the only thing I know is school and my career path. This is the only thing certain in my world.

I need to get up early in the mornings, work out, study, take Mollie for a walk, study, clean, study, eat, study, hang out with close friends, study, sleep, and do it all over again everyday for two years. This is what I need. Anything else will cause heartache...I don't want to cry, I refuse to cry.