Monday, December 01, 2008

In my life i've made mistakes like many others going through life. Up until this summer I've never regretted my mistakes. I have always felt like the things I did were a growing lesson.

Not this time. My mistake was unneccisary, hurtful, and i don't know if it's possible to come back from. I wish I can make this work and get through the rough time, i'm in it and dealing with it and willing more than ever to make sure it works.

i hurt someone, terribly, and i don't know how to fix it. I want more than anything to fix it.

I never called this person amazing, because this person more than the word amazing can even hold in it's definition. my past actions this summer didn't reflect my feelings. Hopefully, my actions now will.

1 comment:

Don said...

Mistakes are still lessons in life. We learn more from our failures than from our victories. If life was nothing but victories, the first failure you hit would show just how poorly you've learned to handle adversity.

I don't know the circumstances or the person, but a good idea to consider would be the direct and honest approach. Talk with them - in person is best - about what you did and how terrible it makes you feel and how much you regret it. Then ask what can you do, what would it take, to make things right again.

And, naturally, don't make the same mistake twice...

I was in AA for a while, and one of the 12 steps is accounting for all the things you've done wrong to other as a direct or indirect result of your addiction, and the next step is to make amends to those you've wrong, if it's feasible to do so and won't cause harm. Leave out the addiction part of all that, and it makes a lot of sense for everyone to follow through their lives. You can pretend you're Earl Hickey and put this person on your list!